I want...........

I don't actually know what I want. I have been out of sorts and it is a real good thing my boss likes me. I called to tell the office I needed more journal papers and the gal said if she had known she could of sent them with the nurse and I told her maybe if I wasn't a 1 girl team someone else could of told her! My co-worker just walks out when I get here. It doesn't matter what she is doing and it grates on me. I FINISH my tasks first. Then yesterday I put my foot in my mouth in front of the preacher and his wife. I told Hubs that I wasn't looking for anymore places to live and if he wanted to move he could look because I gave up. He told me that God was going to give us what we needed. And stupid me, said that I thought so too when we were looking at the condo but it didn't happen. You could of heard a pin drop. I am not sure if I was embarrassed or not. As crazy as that sounds I don't know if I even care enough to be embarrassed about anything anymore. I have been talking to a friend and we are going through the same thing. We are tired I think. Can't wait to have some extra time off!