I wanna go home!!!

I am sicker than a dog with this migraine. I would upchuck my wheaties but I didn't eat any. Anyway, I DO NOT feel like talking (big surprise there) but I have to call in my schedule. The new lady asks why I can't just check it online. I tell her that I can't do that because it hasn't been set yet because Cindy and I work it out then I call it in. She said that she set a schedule so I told her that it didn't happen that way and all she needed to do was type in what I told her. I finally got her convinced.........took her long enough to do it still! Then she told me that Cindy doesn't do Sundays. HUH? Since when? Oh, wait. She does do Sundays. By the time I got done my headache was worse, even my face was killing me! (no smart remarks) After ALL that running around cockrobins barn she informs me, "oh, it says here that you and Cindy do your own schedule and call it in!" Gee, thanks! Told ya so!!! I didn't say that but I thought it! When I got done I must not of sounded as mean as I thought because she said, "thanks sweetie for being so sweet and patient." Okaaaaaaaaay! Glad I pulled that one off! I hate migraines! They are no fun and I seem to get 1 at least once a month. I would rather be home with it than pulling another double!

bits and pieces

Random pictures from some of my time off. I thought after having some time off I would be ready to come back to work but getting out of my van this morning knowing that I was going to be here for 48 hours was almost more than I could take. The hours get so long and lonely.

Anyway, I did have a great time off. We went to Indiana to see Jonathon. On the way over we stopped for a quick sandwich at McD's. Daniel and Seth are the only 2 that actually like it. Jacob and Abigail decided that the McChicken was the lesser of all the nasty sandwiches so that is what they got. I told Abigail that I thought she liked the McChicken and she said, "no, Mc"CHOKE"in is more like it! Jacob said he was thinking, "Mc"CHUCK"in. I don't know why but that just cracked me up. I baked and cooked and made cards and played games and overall just really had a good time off. I was concerned because I had not realized how tired I was. Daniel has been working late and I didn't hear him come in any night. I asked him what if he had been a murder and he said he supposed I wouldn't be talking to him. HHHHMMM. He got the frame distressed for my print and I love it. I told him that it would be a good idea to go over to storage and look for the other prints but he looked at me like I was nuts! Imagine that! Someone looking at me like I a nuts! That has never happened before! Yeh, right. Anyway, I am back to the old grind. Here today and tomorrow then off Wednesday and back Thursday. Off Friday and back for Saturday and Sunday/

I wonder............

I have been accused lately of having my head buried in the sand. Maybe I do but at this moment in time I refuse to look around me and go around with my head down feeling like everything in my life is going to come crashing down at any time. I understand that we may face some hard days ahead but I want to face them head on. Until the time comes I will continue to smile and laugh. I see no reason for life if there is nothing but heartache and pain in my future. For now I will enjoy the life I have. I know that I am not saying this very well but I guess I get confused when people who are supposed to be counting on God for everything can't trust him with their future. I do see the bad around me but if that is all I see then I am headed for a dark place in my life. I love life and want to embrace it! I have had my share of heartaches and will have more I am sure. Seems like here lately every time I gain a friend I lose another. What am I supposed to do? Whine? Cry? Both? I could do that but it wouldn't serve a purpose so I go on! I live, I laugh and I love! I am!

AHA!

Note to self: DO NOT go to the Wal-mart and Kroger when you are:
1) tired
2) hungry
3) sleepy
I worked a double on Thursday and Friday. 48 hours is what that amounts to. I got 6 hours of sleep~~~if you combine the 2 nights and really stretch it. Therefore I was running on fumes by Saturday morning. I don't like to go home and go to bed since I am not home much but I knew that sleeping would be better than sitting around like a brain on drugs commercial look alike. I have heard that you are only as old as you feel. Well, Ok. I can buy that so after napping for about an hour I looked in the mirror and sure enough I did look 100 years old! I was so tired!!! I finally got moving and somewhere in my foggy state I had given the kids permission to walk to the library so I was alone. I started out by putting away the dishes........it suddenly dawned on my that there weren't very many in there so maybe they were dirty. I put them all back in the dishwasher. GGGRRR...................Then I went to get the kids and picked up hubby from work and came home and did a load of laundry and fixed dinner. I made a card for a friend and got stomped in a game of "UPWORDS" by my hubby. That was my very ambitious day. I am really looking forward to some time off. Daniel would like to spend this time off in Indiana and he needs to take care of some business there. I guess that is what we will do. I personally would like to wake up at least 1 morning in my own bed and stay there as long as I want. It seems like it has been forever since that happened. All I know is that no matter where we spend this time I want to rest, rest, rest!

NOPE!

Ok, people I don't care who tells you that rib bones will grind up in the garbage disposal. I have dug them out enough to know that even if they are supposed to grind up...they don't. Neither do Lobster claws. I guess if you really don't believe me I can leave them in the sink....along with my lunch as proof! YUCK! SICK! GAG! EEEWW! GROSS! REVOLTING! DISGUSTING! REPULSIVE! There, that is how UGH it is when I have to reach in there and grab that slimey stuff because you think I am the idiot!

SIGH!

There are times when I would like to go back to my teen years when I didn't have to decide what to do and how to do it. I didn't have to wonder if I should keep the job I had or look elsewhere. I love my job but I miss my family when I am gone and they miss me. I even miss the cooking everyday! We need to start looking for a bigger place to live and I dread it. Last year really just about drove me nuts. I just want my family together under one roof. I have often said that the best way to get all you want is to not want much. Is this wanting too much? I don't know of anyone that wouldn't want this! There are times I wish I could wake up and have Daniel tell me that our life is all figured out and it was all good. At this point even if he told me he had a job in Indiana it would still be ok. (even though I sure would miss Sally and my mom) All I want is my sanity back!!!

WHATEVER!!!

When we lived in Florida the guy that did the AC work in the house we lived in decided that he didn't like being he-man so he went and had the necessary work done to become she-man! The funny part is when he was a man his name was David when he put aside manly ways he changed his name to...........Sherry! spelled like mine. Anyway, on one particularly hard day Abigail said she didn't care what they had fixed up for him he was not a woman and would never really know all the trials of being one. On days like I have had lately I would agree. I mean we have the mood swings and we want to laugh at everything then not long after we want to cry. I just wonder when it all levels out and life feels normal. Somedays I can work, cook, clean and walk and still have energy left over then other days getting out of bed feels like a task too big. I am not even sure what "normal" really even means. Oh, well. I have had my high points and low points in the last year. I have met up with friends on FB that I still talk to and there are others that disappeared as fast as they appeared! I wrote a letter last week to a friend I had not talked to for years! I got a letter back from her within days. I still like the snail mail thing! Well, enough of my ramblings for tonight. It is time for me to go to bed so that I can start getting up every couple of hours! I am so excited about having some time off. I think I have paid my dues here lately!
GOOD NIGHT ALL!

My kiddos.............

Jonathon, Jacob, Seth and Abigail

I LOVE YOU ALL!

I am so proud to be your mom!

I wonder sometimes how

I got to be so blessed!

This and That

Daniel made this frame for me to put a cheap print in. I have several more....probably in storage. All he has to do now is distress it some!

This is what I see sometimes when I look out the window at work. I love it when the deer bring their babies. The twins are especially cute!

What was that???

Somehow I am ending up doing 4 doubles this month. My coworker tried to set the schedule so she could have days off and not miss time. How about, no ma'am! I will be here 48 hours in a row 3 times in 10 days. I have 2 singles---24 hours during that time too. Daniel told me to try to keep sweet and I am trying but it isn't working out real well. I don't say anything to her so I suppose she still thinks I am sweet. Oh, well. My client told me tonight that she hoped I realized how much she appreciates the fact that I take such good care of her. I will keep plodding on and using this blog as my "venting" place. I am going to try to make lemonade out of the lemons I have been handed!!!!!!!!!

My clients dog and me!

What a sweet, loveable dog! I like him most when he doesn't punish me by messing in the floor when I don't give him steak!