I wonder............

I have been accused lately of having my head buried in the sand. Maybe I do but at this moment in time I refuse to look around me and go around with my head down feeling like everything in my life is going to come crashing down at any time. I understand that we may face some hard days ahead but I want to face them head on. Until the time comes I will continue to smile and laugh. I see no reason for life if there is nothing but heartache and pain in my future. For now I will enjoy the life I have. I know that I am not saying this very well but I guess I get confused when people who are supposed to be counting on God for everything can't trust him with their future. I do see the bad around me but if that is all I see then I am headed for a dark place in my life. I love life and want to embrace it! I have had my share of heartaches and will have more I am sure. Seems like here lately every time I gain a friend I lose another. What am I supposed to do? Whine? Cry? Both? I could do that but it wouldn't serve a purpose so I go on! I live, I laugh and I love! I am!