A little early...............

I am aware that it is early for Valentines day and of course some people would think I have too much time on my hands and I do........because I am lucky enough to have internet at work and a client that goes to bed early! Blessed me! Life, it's a beautiful thing! I plan to have a great NEW YEAR and I hope everyone else does too. I want to take time for some of the things I love and the people I love. There are some that I want to see SOON!

My friend....................

I am grateful for the special person in my life that seems to be able to make me smile all the time even when I don't think I want to. They listen to me complain and don't call it that. Thank you my friend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Love you!

hard to believe................

Christmas is almost over! I got some nice things but the nicest thing of all was having Jonathon home and getting a hug from him! My client and her girls gave me some nice things. After seeing what they had for me I was almost embarrassed to give her the scrapbook I had made but she loved it. She cried and that broke my heart. She can be a testy one but usually is sweet to me. I can't wait to go home tomorrow and look over my stuff again! I can't even remember what I got because I had to go to bed so I could get up this morning to come to work. I took her to her daughters which turned out to be quite a trip.........she got upset and took the directions and told me I was supposed to turn right and that was wrong. All is well that ends well..........we finally got there. I am so directionally challenged! I hope everyone had a great Christmas!

POOH!

I know, I seriously need to grow up but it is Christmas and I love Winnie the Pooh and his friends. I just wish my favorite of all was on here...........Eeyore! I am still keeping my fingers crossed for the Eeyore sweatshirt! If I had to be good though, I am out of luck! After Christmas I will go back to a more grown up background but until then........love you Pooh, Tigger, Piglet, Rabbit and Roo! Eeyore, I love you most of all!

Hello all!

I can't believe it is that time of year again! Christmas is my 2nd favorite Holiday! I am excited to go get Jonathon on Friday....if all goes well that is! I miss that son of mine. It will be nice to have them all at my table for a couple of days!

HELLO!

Not much going on in my world except working! I love my client so it is a job I can take joy in. I will post pics soon!

hhhhhhhhhmmmmmmmmm.............

Not even sure where to begin! I wonder sometimes what steps to take next. It seems like I don't know which end is up. I have the idea that if you don't want much then you can have everything you want. Now I am left to wonder if wanting a bigger place is a want or need since Abigail does have a room at mom's. I guess the mother in me says that is a need because I want her with me all the time. I do appreciate the fact that she can have a room there but............then there is the job thing. I LOVE my job and couldn't ask for a better client or for 1 that loves me more but I would like to be able to work normal hours instead of being gone for 24 hours at a time. Until I figure out the difference in needs and wants in these situations I will keep on DESIRING!

More stuff!

Daniel says that everytime we go to Indiana we come home with more stuff but that is ok when it isn't just "stuff."
1: the coke bottles belongsd to Grandma Mings
2: the orange crate also belonged to her. It holds my yearly Taste of Home cookbooks
real nicely.
3: the table was made by his Great-Great Grandfather
4: the records were bought by his mom for Daniel and Darwin in '64. She used gift
money from his Great-Grandparents
5: this quilt block was made by my Grandma Schnell and the meat platter was hers.
My friend, Annette Killinger bought them from her yard sale several years ago
and gave them to me this past weekend!
Like I said, it isn't just stuff! I love it all!

Saturday in Indiana...

Abigail with her friend, Steve Best!
My boys love this car!
I am the only adult I saw eating cotton candy but that is ok. I think. I love the stuff and I am still a kid at heart!

part of the class of '85 Melody, me, sponsor; Jane Wetherald and Randy

Donna, sorry if you thought you could get by with posting all kinds of pictures and not have yours posted!

Going home!

Tomorrow we leave to go to Indiana for 2 days. I am excited but nervous about the reunion! I AM very excited to see my daughter and son. I was missing her the other day and Seth asked me what I was going to do when they were all moved out. Like I told him I will have to adjust and move on but I am not one of those people that counts the days until the kids are gone! I enjoy my family! I miss Jonathon even though he has been moved out for more than a year. I really think about him when I make bread of any kind because that is one of his favorite things. I remember trying to get meal ideas from the kids and when it came his turn he said, "bread, rolls and biscuits." I told them those were all breads and he reminded me that I had asked for 3 ideas and they were all food. TOUCHE' he was right!

TIME!

Where does time go??? Now that I work like I do I feel like I have to choreograph every minute of my time off to get things done. I never thought I would have, "wash hair" on my list of things to do! I set a schedule and it never goes completely as planned which is not all bad. After power walking through Wal-mart yesterday so I would be checked out before Daniel got off for dinner I had no trouble crossing off "take a walk" since I had done that and then some. I also had my plans changed when the downstaris neighbor met us as we were coming in and said, "baby, my brother gave me some apples and I want to share them with you." That meant adding "make caramel apple cake" to my list! Earlier in the day my mom had called and asked if I wanted some of the chicken she was going to fry and I said sure and that if she didn't mind I would let her fry the chicken I had taken out for dinner. There it was, a yummy fried chicken dinner and I had no grease to clean up. I just made the veggies and taters! All in all it was a great day! I also got all of my scrapbooking stuff put in decorative, matching boxes. That is another story altogether. I thought I would not be able to get the yellow ones because they appeared to be out and switching over to winter stuff. I did end up getting yellow. All for $2 less per box than I would of paid the week before! YAY! for me!

Our idea of fun!

Daniel does this:

While I do this!

An Apple a Day

.........keeps the Dr. away! At least that is what they say. I should be in good shape, unless you actually have to eat them! I was dusting the living/dining area and realized just how many apples I have! It took me forever! Last night Daniel told me that we are going to be the recipient of another apple crate that belonged to his grandma Mings. I am so excited about that. I was dusting the things in the pie safe yesterday and there were so many things to smile about. glassware from his great grandparents. My grandma Schnell's recipe box is a treasure to me! I really do like old things, especially when they have belonged to someone I know. They have a story to tell. I think we are also going to get a small table that one of his grandparents made. He said it was ours IF we want it. I told him that of course we want it!

What was I thinking???

I used to wonder why my kids thought I was the world's best mom! Well, Abigail's friend and his sister went to Columbus and went shopping with Abigail. When I mentioned this to Jacob he said, "Abigail is on a date?" Of course, I said, "no" that his sister was there. He said that it was a chaperoned date. That never even occurred to me! No wonder they love me. I am in a fog or something! I had to lay in the floor and think about that for awhile. So, is that a date?

It's a great day to be alive!

I went out earlier and took a walk. It is a beautiful day here in the neighborhood where I work. I am blessed! I wish that Daniel and I both had the day off tomorrow so we could do something for the Holiday but he is working. At least I will be home with my boys. Abigail is going to be shopping with her "friend" and his sister. I sure do miss that girl of mine! I think I will be doing laundry for part of the day. UGH! Well, guess they don't call it "Labor Day" for nothing! I have been busy making cards and sending them to friends. I might even get around to some of that tomorrow. I will have to take a walk for sure too! Jacob goes with me and Daniel goes when he is there. He is harder on me though. Jacob is nice and lets me go home when I get tired. Oh, well. I am just glad someone goes with me because it is a good time to talk!

I DID IT!

I made the Standing Rib Roast and the guests said it was the best roast they had tasted in a long time. They even toasted me! I was very embarrassed about that! The whole dinner was a great success and I am so glad because these are pretty well off people. They treat me so good though, Everyone that comes through the door tells me they are glad I am here to care for her. It is nice to be appreciated!

NO! NO! and NO!

I came in to work ecpecting my run of the mill double but noooooooooo it can't happen like that. WE are having a dinner party and I am doing the cooking! I only hope I don't mess up that $130 chunk of meat! I cannot believe this. I like to stay in my little corner and be unobserved but I guess that isn't happening tonight! On the bright side I am enjoying this cooler weather. It was nice to wake up chilly this A.M. Having the windows open improves my mood!

this and that again

For years I have pretty much avoided having my picture taken much less post it very often but I have come to the conclusion that for better or worse I am what I am. So, I am just going to be myself and post pictures. Most people know what I look like anyway!

so true

We'll be friends until we are old and senile, then we'll be new friends.
I got this from a friends Facebook. I like it! There are some people that I hope I will be friends forever with even if this is what it takes!

Missing my girl

I already miss you little lady and wish I hadn't let you go! I hope you have fun if you get to go with "you know who" next week. You know the rules!!! So did I! I know sometimes it is weird for you that we are so much alike but I think you will be ok! Just follow your dreams. There may come a time when your dreams take you in a direction that I don't like but I will try to keep my hands off! I love you and want you to be happy! I will promise that if your dreams don't turn out the way you planned I will be there for you to help you pick up the pieces! I love the journal and find it surprising that you bought it not knowing that I had put it on my list! That just goes to show how we think alike! As for writing down all my secrets??? Some of those you have to just carry in your heart, they can't be expressed with pen and paper! I love you, can't wait until you get home!

I Believe.................

there are angels among us sent down to us from someone up above! I had to go to the store last night to get RX and groceries for my client. I was still sick from the migraine and really just wanted to be home. As I was walking through the store I passed 3 little boys, they appeared to be about as close in age as mine were. Anyway they were somewhere between 6-10. They were having a good time tussling. I have to admit that sometimes when I see little ones like that I wish mine were still little but when I am feeling yucky I am so glad they are not. I was standing there looking at something and I noticed the tussling had stopped and figured they had moved on. Then I noticed something out of the corner of my eye..........it was one of the boys. When I looked at him I HAD to smile. He was standing there with his arms folded, staring at me with a huge smile on his face. I said, "hi there." He gave me a quick nod and took off. I looked up and saw his dad who was also staring at me with his eyebrows raised. He said, "Okaaaaaaaaaaaaay" and left too. I am not sure what this little guy was smiling about but I like to think that he came along just to make me smile when I didn't really feel like it!

I wanna go home!!!

I am sicker than a dog with this migraine. I would upchuck my wheaties but I didn't eat any. Anyway, I DO NOT feel like talking (big surprise there) but I have to call in my schedule. The new lady asks why I can't just check it online. I tell her that I can't do that because it hasn't been set yet because Cindy and I work it out then I call it in. She said that she set a schedule so I told her that it didn't happen that way and all she needed to do was type in what I told her. I finally got her convinced.........took her long enough to do it still! Then she told me that Cindy doesn't do Sundays. HUH? Since when? Oh, wait. She does do Sundays. By the time I got done my headache was worse, even my face was killing me! (no smart remarks) After ALL that running around cockrobins barn she informs me, "oh, it says here that you and Cindy do your own schedule and call it in!" Gee, thanks! Told ya so!!! I didn't say that but I thought it! When I got done I must not of sounded as mean as I thought because she said, "thanks sweetie for being so sweet and patient." Okaaaaaaaaay! Glad I pulled that one off! I hate migraines! They are no fun and I seem to get 1 at least once a month. I would rather be home with it than pulling another double!

bits and pieces

Random pictures from some of my time off. I thought after having some time off I would be ready to come back to work but getting out of my van this morning knowing that I was going to be here for 48 hours was almost more than I could take. The hours get so long and lonely.

Anyway, I did have a great time off. We went to Indiana to see Jonathon. On the way over we stopped for a quick sandwich at McD's. Daniel and Seth are the only 2 that actually like it. Jacob and Abigail decided that the McChicken was the lesser of all the nasty sandwiches so that is what they got. I told Abigail that I thought she liked the McChicken and she said, "no, Mc"CHOKE"in is more like it! Jacob said he was thinking, "Mc"CHUCK"in. I don't know why but that just cracked me up. I baked and cooked and made cards and played games and overall just really had a good time off. I was concerned because I had not realized how tired I was. Daniel has been working late and I didn't hear him come in any night. I asked him what if he had been a murder and he said he supposed I wouldn't be talking to him. HHHHMMM. He got the frame distressed for my print and I love it. I told him that it would be a good idea to go over to storage and look for the other prints but he looked at me like I was nuts! Imagine that! Someone looking at me like I a nuts! That has never happened before! Yeh, right. Anyway, I am back to the old grind. Here today and tomorrow then off Wednesday and back Thursday. Off Friday and back for Saturday and Sunday/

I wonder............

I have been accused lately of having my head buried in the sand. Maybe I do but at this moment in time I refuse to look around me and go around with my head down feeling like everything in my life is going to come crashing down at any time. I understand that we may face some hard days ahead but I want to face them head on. Until the time comes I will continue to smile and laugh. I see no reason for life if there is nothing but heartache and pain in my future. For now I will enjoy the life I have. I know that I am not saying this very well but I guess I get confused when people who are supposed to be counting on God for everything can't trust him with their future. I do see the bad around me but if that is all I see then I am headed for a dark place in my life. I love life and want to embrace it! I have had my share of heartaches and will have more I am sure. Seems like here lately every time I gain a friend I lose another. What am I supposed to do? Whine? Cry? Both? I could do that but it wouldn't serve a purpose so I go on! I live, I laugh and I love! I am!

AHA!

Note to self: DO NOT go to the Wal-mart and Kroger when you are:
1) tired
2) hungry
3) sleepy
I worked a double on Thursday and Friday. 48 hours is what that amounts to. I got 6 hours of sleep~~~if you combine the 2 nights and really stretch it. Therefore I was running on fumes by Saturday morning. I don't like to go home and go to bed since I am not home much but I knew that sleeping would be better than sitting around like a brain on drugs commercial look alike. I have heard that you are only as old as you feel. Well, Ok. I can buy that so after napping for about an hour I looked in the mirror and sure enough I did look 100 years old! I was so tired!!! I finally got moving and somewhere in my foggy state I had given the kids permission to walk to the library so I was alone. I started out by putting away the dishes........it suddenly dawned on my that there weren't very many in there so maybe they were dirty. I put them all back in the dishwasher. GGGRRR...................Then I went to get the kids and picked up hubby from work and came home and did a load of laundry and fixed dinner. I made a card for a friend and got stomped in a game of "UPWORDS" by my hubby. That was my very ambitious day. I am really looking forward to some time off. Daniel would like to spend this time off in Indiana and he needs to take care of some business there. I guess that is what we will do. I personally would like to wake up at least 1 morning in my own bed and stay there as long as I want. It seems like it has been forever since that happened. All I know is that no matter where we spend this time I want to rest, rest, rest!

NOPE!

Ok, people I don't care who tells you that rib bones will grind up in the garbage disposal. I have dug them out enough to know that even if they are supposed to grind up...they don't. Neither do Lobster claws. I guess if you really don't believe me I can leave them in the sink....along with my lunch as proof! YUCK! SICK! GAG! EEEWW! GROSS! REVOLTING! DISGUSTING! REPULSIVE! There, that is how UGH it is when I have to reach in there and grab that slimey stuff because you think I am the idiot!

SIGH!

There are times when I would like to go back to my teen years when I didn't have to decide what to do and how to do it. I didn't have to wonder if I should keep the job I had or look elsewhere. I love my job but I miss my family when I am gone and they miss me. I even miss the cooking everyday! We need to start looking for a bigger place to live and I dread it. Last year really just about drove me nuts. I just want my family together under one roof. I have often said that the best way to get all you want is to not want much. Is this wanting too much? I don't know of anyone that wouldn't want this! There are times I wish I could wake up and have Daniel tell me that our life is all figured out and it was all good. At this point even if he told me he had a job in Indiana it would still be ok. (even though I sure would miss Sally and my mom) All I want is my sanity back!!!

WHATEVER!!!

When we lived in Florida the guy that did the AC work in the house we lived in decided that he didn't like being he-man so he went and had the necessary work done to become she-man! The funny part is when he was a man his name was David when he put aside manly ways he changed his name to...........Sherry! spelled like mine. Anyway, on one particularly hard day Abigail said she didn't care what they had fixed up for him he was not a woman and would never really know all the trials of being one. On days like I have had lately I would agree. I mean we have the mood swings and we want to laugh at everything then not long after we want to cry. I just wonder when it all levels out and life feels normal. Somedays I can work, cook, clean and walk and still have energy left over then other days getting out of bed feels like a task too big. I am not even sure what "normal" really even means. Oh, well. I have had my high points and low points in the last year. I have met up with friends on FB that I still talk to and there are others that disappeared as fast as they appeared! I wrote a letter last week to a friend I had not talked to for years! I got a letter back from her within days. I still like the snail mail thing! Well, enough of my ramblings for tonight. It is time for me to go to bed so that I can start getting up every couple of hours! I am so excited about having some time off. I think I have paid my dues here lately!
GOOD NIGHT ALL!

My kiddos.............

Jonathon, Jacob, Seth and Abigail

I LOVE YOU ALL!

I am so proud to be your mom!

I wonder sometimes how

I got to be so blessed!

This and That

Daniel made this frame for me to put a cheap print in. I have several more....probably in storage. All he has to do now is distress it some!

This is what I see sometimes when I look out the window at work. I love it when the deer bring their babies. The twins are especially cute!

What was that???

Somehow I am ending up doing 4 doubles this month. My coworker tried to set the schedule so she could have days off and not miss time. How about, no ma'am! I will be here 48 hours in a row 3 times in 10 days. I have 2 singles---24 hours during that time too. Daniel told me to try to keep sweet and I am trying but it isn't working out real well. I don't say anything to her so I suppose she still thinks I am sweet. Oh, well. My client told me tonight that she hoped I realized how much she appreciates the fact that I take such good care of her. I will keep plodding on and using this blog as my "venting" place. I am going to try to make lemonade out of the lemons I have been handed!!!!!!!!!

My clients dog and me!

What a sweet, loveable dog! I like him most when he doesn't punish me by messing in the floor when I don't give him steak!

just curious

Sometimes I wonder why people tell you that you are perfect the way you are and that they are glad you haven't changed but then they turn around and tell you that if you would do this or that you would be even better? Or you have people that tell you it would be fun to give you a makeover? Why would you need a makeover if you were perfect and if you are perfect how could you be any better than you already are if you changed things? I guess I am easily confused!

BUSY!

We were able to go to Indiana for part of Wednesday and all of Thursday! It was good to get away. We dropped cupcakes off for Jonathon to share with his coworkers for his birthday! Can't believe I have a son out of his teens already. I don't always feel like I can possibly be that old but then I look in the mirror and the face staring back at me says that I am! Time has passed so quickly, it seems like just yesterday I was the one going off to youth camp and now I am sending my kids! WOW!

3 years in a row on June 30th.

Me on June 30th, 1989 the day before our wedding!




June 30th, 1990 I'm a mommy!
June 30th, 1991 Our Jonathon is 1! So cute!

Jonathon

I can't believe that my oldest son will be 20 on June 30th. Where does the time go? It seems like just yesterday that I held you in my arms and completely lost my heart!
All 8 lbs and 2 oz of you was loved! I remember the first time you slept through the night. Your dad and I woke up and I asked if he had gotten up with you and he said, "no" we both jumped out of bed and ran to check on you! You were blissfully sleeping. I was trying to decide if we should wake you up to eat and dad said he thought babies woke up on their own when they were hungry and sure enough you did!
We love you and we are so proud of the young man you have become!

Happy early Birthday!

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TIME? Where art thou?

I can't believe how quickly time flies. Soon it will be 1 year since we moved here! I have been working with my current client for more than 6 months already. Jonathon will be 20 next week and Daniel and I will have our 21st anniversary July 1st. Just to lay something to rest that bugs me...to the ones that thought we got the cart before the horse, Jonathon was born the day before our anniversary so do the math. If you stink as bad at math as you do at minding your own business that means I was not expecting him when we got married! Anyway, life is good. I just wish it would slow way down!

Good-bye my friend

I rarely say good-bye because it seems so final but today was the day to say it to my first client. Peg was a sweetie under the rough exterior. When I first went to care for her she told me she wasn't getting up and I couldn't make her. I told her that if she didn't then her next step would be the nursing home. I also told her that if she would give me a chance for 2 days and she still didn't want me there I would call the office and tell them. After the 2 days I asked if she wanted me to call the office and she said that I didn't need to, I was ok. I learned to love her and I will miss her. I am glad that I was able to work it into my schedule to care for her a little bit this past month. Good-bye my friend, I love you! Your service was exactly what you would of wanted!

A new look.......

I doctored up the yard sale crock! I like it!!!

New Pics

I have finally updated Jacob and Abigail's pics. I need to do Seth and Jonathon's. I wish they would cooperate! Abigail, I can't believe that you don't like this picture because you don't like the smile! I love it! If I would of had a smile like that when I was a girl I never would of stopped flashing it! Jacob, I love your smile also my precious 2nd son!

something old...something new

This is my Mother's Day gift. I was perfectly happy with the flowers and other things I got and had forgotten about wanting this picture, then Daniel went to my favorite store in Columbus and got it for me! I love "Petals and Vines" and I love that family of mine!


I got these things at a yard sale. When I told Daniel I wanted 1 of the coke crates he said, "it is old and beat up." I said, "exactly, it makes me feel better about myself." We compromised and got the least beat up one. I have also been wanting a new crock for untensils and got this one cheap!

Amateur Photography

I am in a big hurrry to get Jacob's invitations sent so I had to take my own pictures to put on them! DJ, I am looking forward to seeing you and having you do the real thing! It has been a long time since I have seen you! My wedding day, I think! You say I haven't changed since then??? You are in for a big surprise!

Gettin' started

Yesterday was a busy day! I finally got the scrapbook and the paper to start Jacob's book for his graduation. Now I need to head into the abyss and start sorting pictures! FUN! FUN! FUN! I put the book and papers into a bag hoping that the 2 would become 1 and save me alot of work but it didn't happen so I guess I am on my own! I look forward to the walks down memory lane as I start this book but I am going to have to stay busy. If all goes well I will be headed to Indiana in a few days to get his pictures done! Can't believe my 2nd son is graduationg already!

Where are you?

Somewhere out there 'neath the pale moonlight, someone is thinking of you and loving you tonight! Where are you brother of mine? Why are you on my mind so strongly larely? I know that the chances of you seeing this are small but my sister heart wants to tell you how much I love you and miss you. I know we don't always get along and we don't agree on much but you are still my big brother and I will love you until my heart no longer beats. Life is just too short to bicker over petty differences!

We are a family

I've been thinking about my family and how alike we are but also how different. First there is Daniel, He likes meatloaf and thinks I make the best, I hate meatloaf and think if I make the best he has had some nasty meatloaf. He likes COKE and I like PEPSI, of course, that is the choice of the new generation! He takes life seriously and I do to an extent but I laugh more than I probably should. Oh, well. He buys me buttermilk even though he hates it. I guess we are even, I make meatloaf and he eats it.
Then there is me, I am different to put it nicely. I guess that will never change. I just want to always be able to enjoy life and love and be loved. Next we have Jonathon, my quiet son. Hard to believe that we had conversations before you were 2 since you are so quiet now. You are so much like your dad. Reserved, intelligent, steady and a hard worker. You even walk like him! Along comes Jacob, someday you will make a great husband and father. You are the advocate of the little guy. Sweet, charming and a great help! You have also been blessed with a good mind. Seth, what a kid! You are the family comedian, you get your wit from me and your intellect from your father. You listen to radio hosts and they make sense to you! You are cute, funny and loyal to the ones you love! Our little caboose, Abigail, you may not of been planned but you weren't an accident! You round out our family very well. You are more like me than you are your dad. You are sweet, adorable and funny! I love you all!

The best laid plans....

of mice and men. Ok, I am not a man but when I left work this morning I had my day all planned: I was going to go home and eat. After that I was going to bed. We ended up going to Wal-mart for Lasagna noodles and before I knew it I had several other things.
I still planned to go to bed but when you are greeted at the door by your beautiful daughter and she tells you how glad she is that you are home and your 18 year old comes in and says, "she's here! she's here!" and gives you a huge hug it kind of makes the thoughts of a nap fly out the window! Seth was glad to see me too. My meal ended up being: lasagna, green beans, slaw, homemade breadsticks and strawberry shortcake! I love the shortcake recipe I got from Daniels mom, it is so yummy! I shared our meal with my mom and our neighbor. I really enjoy cooking and it makes me happy to fix good food! I made a mess in the kitchen and Daniel came in and said something about me making a mess when I am home and Seth said, "yeh, but she makes really good food so it is worth it!" Thanks guys for a great day! I love you all! Oh, and to top off this day I beat Daniel in a game of UPWORDS!

STOP!!!

Someone please stop this merry-go-round and let me off! Last Thursday I got up and came to work to do a 48. Saturday, Daniel and Abigail picked me up at work and we went to Wal-mart and Kroger. Went straight home, made lunch and a carrot cake, took Daniel to work, went home and frosted the carrot cake, took carrot cake back to my client to serve on Mother's day. Went to Wal-mart to take Daniel carrot cake and to shop more. Stopped by the library to check email. Went to laundry mat to do upteen loads of laundry, went home to put away laundry and start a load of hanging clothes. Ran into moms to give her MD gift and chat for awhile. Went to put clothes in dryer and start another load. Went upstairs and crashed on couch for a few minutes. Finally got laundry done and took a shower. Went to get Daniel at 11:00. Fell into bed at 12:00 got up at 6:15 got to other clients house by 8. Worked a 12 hour, came home and ate, visited with Daniel and kids. Got to sleep around 12. Got up at 6:15 again and did another 12. Mom picked me up and I came home to chill with kids for awhile. Got up and came to work at my regular job. I could work all the days I want for the other client but I am done~~~I am exhausted and my family needs me! All I have to say is thankfully I am not real big on trying to make myself beautiful! I just concentrate on not looking like a cave woman right now!

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!

I know it is early but I won't have internet access until next Tuesday because I am going to be working a different job for a few days! Anyway a very Happy Mothers day to my own mom and my mother-in-law! 2 great ladies! Last year was a hard year for us and without both of you we wouldn't of made it! So many times I wanted to quit but you both reminded me of what was important and somehow I pulled through! Thank you both! Being a mother is perhaps the hardest but most fulfilling job I have ever had! Thank you kids for your love and understanding when I fall far short of what I should be! I am glad to be the mother of, Jonathon Michael, Jacob Daniel, Seth David and Abigail Celeste!

Happy 18th birthday Jacob!

Where has time gone? Seems like yesterday I was looking through the incubator at my baby boy and wondering what the future might hold for you! You looked so tiny in there even though you weren't very tiny at 10lbs and 3oz! Dad and I both loved you so much! You were a joy from the start, wiggling around until you had your head right under our chin! The law says you are a man but somehow my mother heart says that can't be---that perhaps you are still my little boy!

Family

We had a hurried but good day with the family yesterday. I think it was Abigail that asked me why her dad was going bald and Uncle Darwin wasn't. At first I said they had different genes but she gave me a funny look so I told her I really didn't know how that worked but apparently her dad got the bald genes and Uncle Darwin didn't! She really likes her pap-pa Brunson. None of us ever got to know Daniel's dad because he passed away when Daniel was 17. Since they never really knew my dad either Pap-pa Brunson is the only grandpa they have ever known. He is a great one to them!

My girl and me!

When Abigail tried on my dress and it fit I was shocked. I told her to go see her dad and she didn't want to because she thought he would be mad because she was wearing my dress.....I told her that anger would not be his reaction! I was right of course, he came out to where I was and said, "wow! I would of never imagined how that would make me feel but I got teary-eyed!"